27/09/22 Task One

 I've come a long way from being a year one, from going from secondary to college with no knowledge of anyone's names or about the course. But I'm really glad I joined, it's certainly been a long journey with its ups and downs, but I'm happy where I am. 

Year one, for me, mainly started when we had our first production, The Witches, I was so incredibly nervous for the audition and even so I went through and did it, I'm happy I did, I got a relatively smaller role but it was the comic relief of the show, and it's the role I went for and the role I wanted. I didn't want a main part at the time because I was really not prepared for such, I was way too nervous for it. After I finished my part I remember runnings offstage, it went perfectly, but as soon as I got behind the curtain, I had cotton mouth and I thought I was going to be sick. I wasn't, thankfully, but I will never forget that feeling. I had still yet to grow my confidence, but it did increase within that time and with my constant asking for feedback off my peers and tutors, I used it to increase my acting ability to the absolute best it could be. The next show was Charlie and the chocolate factory. I did the same as last time, however first I was gunning for wonka, I auditioned but then after seeing the other people and the amount of people going for the role I knew I wasn't going to get it, but there was still a role free, so I threw my cards on the table and took the opportunity, the opportunity to play Mrs Gloop. While yes, the role was made for a woman, I turned the role into a dame, and therefore comedy. I had already shown I can play a comic relief role and to do it again was incredibly fun, it increased my confidence, my ability to use accents and my projection as I had to yell. I really enjoyed the role, it was fun but it also improved a fair amount from my start. After Charlie, it was then the national connections show, Remote. Which has been by far my favourite show. I played the role of Blister, a person who bullies the protagonists throughout the show, Blister is the antagonist, the villain, and Blister was a main role, my first main role in the adventure I had so far. I felt like I had to fight tooth and nail to secure the role, as we had to do many chemistry tests, improv using the characters and send in self tapes, this was because we could only have one cast, meaning the pressure was higher and so was the reward. When I got the role in the end I remember being incredibly happy, I wanted to push myself by trying out a villain and by trying to be one of the main roles for the first time in my time on the course, and I loved it. It couldn't have gone any better and I truly believe remote is what boosted my confidence immensely, considering playing a villain and having a main role was both new to me, I was incredibly happy to have it and excited for the future, where I hoped and still hope I'll be able to play as more antagonists, but I'm not done trying out new things! After Remote was our end of year performance, Blood Brothers. I was initially dead set on getting Edward Lyons, it was a main role, included an accent and was a protagonist, all of which was either new or still fairly new to me, whilst I didn't get the part I did get my second choice, of the narrator. Playing as the narrator helped me develop more confidence and allowed me to open the show which I had never done before, I was incredibly nervous, I remember shaking and sweating profusely as the audience walked in, it was awful. But then we actually started performing, and I just did what I usually do, I stare at the stares while performing, I refuse to look at the audience's faces so that I don't overthink and snap out of it. And it worked, I enjoyed the role and I'm extremely glad of how it went. 

I still believe I need to work on my confidence, massively so, and I'd rather have a role that's more dramatic so that I can see if I'm capable of putting on a really emotional performance, or if I'm only good at making the audience laugh and feel on edge. I want to have a variety instead of being a one shot wonder, and I hope to be able to do that this year.

Today I spent the morning and part of the afternoon filming, doing voice acting and acting as a puppet called "Edward the Engineer" it was different and I really enjoyed it, I'm glad I've tapped into voice acting, it's something I've wanted to do before but never had the opportunity and should the opportunity arise again I'm sure I'd take it. 

After which we had our Unknown Theatre Company meetings which we're doing every Thursday or when we get the chance for our Unit 12, to put on our own performance, we devised mini plan and after which we then focused on our sitcoms that we've wrote up over the summer and weeks before, overall today was a productive but good day, I'm excited for what the future holds in store.