Show day Remote Connections show

 Wednesday the 9th of March

Show day

Everyone was nervous during the show because we all knew an observer would be there from the national theatre. You could practically tenseness in the air from everyone's nerves. I was trying to stay calm, whilst thinking of the things we all needed to be conscious of, projection, diction and blocking. We heard the crowd enter, and the amount of people who were in the theatre talking was so loud we could speak normally backstage and no one could notice, It was much different to what I had experienced before, and we weren't even at york. Then the crowd silenced and the lights dimmed, it was time for us to go on stage. I listened closely, feeling my anxiety sharpen and take hold, as I waited in silence for my queue. Then it came, me and my make-shift gang went on stage, I immediately noticed my family sitting front row and my nerves spiked, again. However, I put in one hundred percent and tried my best, just as I had done in rehearsals, and each show I've done. I get lost in the character I play. During rehearsals, I wasn't as aggressive but when I saw the video of what I had actually done I had no idea just how aggressive I was, I was just absorbed into my character. My technique for not getting psyched out by the audience is to look somewhere, where they aren't. During the show, I looked at the tech booth, because up there, I couldn't see people, and I was projecting my voice towards the audience, otherwise, I kept my eyes on my fellow actors, if I was talking to them. I didn't however like the way I was stood towards the end, I noticed that the audience to the right of me would've only seen my back and that bothered me, as well with some other lines I get quieter towards the end, so I'm going to work on them for the show coming in york. 

30/03/2022 

A man called Carl came in and watched a rehearsal we did, he seemed to enjoy it and told us he did at the end. He also gave everyone feedback and I feel as though mine was especially useful, he told me that I shouldn't have to feel the need to move around a lot because I need to be intimidating, I don't need to fidget with my jacket and such, I need to stand still and glare, he said that I already have an intimidating physique, and that I have the anger behind the actions, I just need to put it into my motions and stance. He then gave me an example of someone being bullied, such as if someone was walking around back and forth pointing and such, that It's not intimidating at all, but if someone was just stood there, glaring and being forceful with their actions, It's incredibly intimidating. He then pointed out a scene I did with the character Crystal, where I need to twist her arm, but suggested instead of the basic twisting with no purpose, I could put her into a handlock and twist her arm, so that It looks more realistic without looking exceptionally awkward at the same time. I've found the feedback I've been given very useful, and I'm going to make sure I take it to heart in the coming performance in york